Where do I begin?! Whew! What a crazy last four years it has been.
The husband I refer to in the earlier posts is now my ex-husband. We had a pretty rough falling out, but we both understand that we are on two very different paths. We tried for a couple years to have a family. Now we look back and see why we went through what we did with infertility and why we weren't getting what we wanted.
Everything happens for a reason. God's listening, but HE knows what is best.
I joined the Army back in August of 2013.
After my divorce was final I met an amazing man...
C told me right away that he had a daughter. That, obviously didn't phase me one bit and I agreed to another date. About four weeks into dating, he dropped a huge bomb on me. He told me he had had a vasectomy done after his daughter was born (she was 6 at the time). He knew that I wanted children of my own and immediately brought the vasectomy to my attention.
I took a chance.
You could imagine the feeling I had when he broke the news of the vasectomy. The lump in my throat and the way my stomach felt was an all too familiar feeling. That feeling of, what now? At the time, I casually brushed it off and went on like it wasn't a big deal to me. After all, there's adoption, IVF, IUI, etc, right?
As time went by, our feelings grew stronger and stronger for one another. We talked through several different options when it came to our relationship. He asked me time and time again if I was sure that I wanted to get serious with him, given the circumstances. He knew my dream was to become a mother, and after interacting with his daughter, he could see the spark in my eye for motherhood. I think at one point he really considered letting me "go" because he didn't want to ruin my dream in life. I couldn't just walk away from him. I had real feelings for him. What kind of regret would I have had to live with if I did that?
I kept reassuring myself that I were going to become a mother one day, regardless. Adoption is always an option.
In August, C popped the question. It was amazing. Hot air balloon ride with everything thought out! Stunningly romantic (especially for a guy that's romantic once in a blue moon!).
Oh, I said yes, by the way!
Fast forward...April 2016, C called me with exciting news. He had been researching. Wait, what?! If you know anything about him, he doesn't research. I was excited to hear what he had to say. He explained that he had found a place with EXCELLENT ratings for reversal vasectomies. The hope and flutter I had in my heart was astounding. When he got home, we sat down and he showed me what he found. We later did more research and set him up an appointment for May.
He had the reversal done in May and we were told we could start about 4 weeks later. He was also told that if we weren't pregnant before September that he needed to get a seaman analysis done. September came and he did as instructed. His results were off the charts and well past where they were wanting it to be.
Oh, we got married in there somewhere, too... July 16, 2016.
So there's a shortened version of a quick 4 year update.
Still only one pink line, but more updates to come.
Oh and as a side note, all parties that I talk/talked about in my blog have given me permission, as I do realize this is pretty personal stuff :). If you want to read my very first post and understand why I am doing this....here's a link. Enjoy!
~Jess
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